in HIS hands

So I was trying to come up with a title for my blog and the song "He's got the whole world in His hands" popped into my head. I thought it was a strange correlation, but the more I thought about it the more I liked it. My blog is intended to be about my life, all about me, my relationships, my job, maybe another 'meme' about my favorite purchases. I will most likely talk about my past, my present, my future. And all of that is "in His hands". How very deep, hey? I think God was trying to dive a little deeper with this thought though.

I often struggle with personalizing my faith. I often see myself as being as part of His family rather than being His child. I apply my faith outwardly much more than I do inwardly. He's got the whole world in His hands.....and hey, what do you know, that includes me.

Funny as this sounds, it's something I've only recently begun to really realize. I mean, I know He has a purpose for my life, He has spoken to me, and listened to me, all very personal interactions, yet I still find myself thinking of myself as just one out of many. But lately I have found myself caught off guard at the emotions I have when a song during worship is personal, for example, singing lyrics like "I love You" or "He calls me friend". When the song, "He's got the whole world in His hands" popped in my head, it struck me in the same way, I am in His hands. It's hard to put into words the way that made me feel, mostly warm fuzzies, but also an uneasiness as I realized why I've had a hard time personaling my faith.

I don't feel all that worthy of being in His hands, all by myself. My head knows that as an individual I am undoubtedly important and special to God, it's in the Bible, Psalm 139 and Luke 12:7 are just some examples, and I trust God's word implicitly. Yet. This hasn't seemed to sink deep enough into my heart. While my self-esteem has taken many healthy steps in the last number of years, it would seem trust in my self worth still evades me. I still struggle with believing I am valuable to others, especially to the omnisient, omnipotent, almighty, and holy Creator of the universe. But He is also the Creator of me. And He holds His creation, each and every one of them, intimately, tenderly, securely, and lovingly in His hands.

And so through my ramblings here, I hope this blog sings:
He's got my job and my money in His hands
He's got my friends and my family in His hands
He's got my present and my future in His hands
He's got my whole life in His hands.