There have been quite a few struggles I have shared here over the years. None I have been so reluctant to share as this one. This one I have considered not sharing at all. This one I just feel like no one would understand. I just don't think I know anyone who understands what it takes to make this kind of decision, and lack of understanding leads to judgements that I would feel like I have to justify. I don't, but I would feel like I do.
I've struggled with whether or not to share this struggle for about a week now. Ever since the decision was made. But in the end, the truth prevails. Maybe one day this will help someone else who has to make this choice. Maybe it will help people to understand me better.
For some reason I can't paste my revelation from my other blog, and I'd rather not have to write it again, so here is a link to my post about this struggle....and the whole situation leading up to this decision.